Dear Todd

December 31, 2011 Dear Todd, Today marks 5 months since you left us and went home to Heaven.  I still have a hard time believing it! I have managed to survive our anniversary, the first day of school, attending Jackson’s football games alone, purchasing a new car, Halloween, Thanksgiving and now Christmas.  I guess I…

My new “normal” does not feel so “normal”

As I sit here preparing to leave on a trip for Christmas, our first one without Todd I think about how people have been saying you have to adjust to your new normal.  Then I think,  “there is nothing “normal” about all this”!  This isn’t how my life is supposed to be!  After 6 years…

Have a little faith

So I have always been a fairly positive person maybe it’s because when I was younger my Dad worked for Zig Ziglar and I was taught the power of positive thinking.  I even went through the series Born to Win in high school and it really did help frame my thinking.  I have had a…

Tag team

One of my biggest struggles right now is parenting my kids alone!  I know I am not truly alone BUT I went from having a totally hands on husband and Daddy and then in a instant became a single parent raising my kids as both Mom and Dad!!  Todd and I both have parents that…

Focused on You, Jesus Focused on YOU!

Oh this is SO Hard!!  When I stood at the altar on August 21, 1993 I pledged to love, honor and cherish Todd until death do us part and I was thinking that would happen around 80 or 90, NOT 42!!  After all Todd had already survived cancer, actually God healed him!!  So my brain…

Let the blog begin…

So I have been blown away with how many friends old and new along with my family have reached out to me since the passing of my high school sweetheart, best friend, soul mate, pastor, Daddy to my children almost 4 months ago!  The love I have received reminds me of God’s grace which is…